It is an encouragement to see how the kids are developing into good people. Although the last two days they have been extra naughty, I really felt like I was going crazy. Well, normally, when I am feeling okay, I can really wrangle the kid (Miles) and keep him going good. He is usually not acting up, but I think he is acting up because of me being so bad off again. Not sure, but it really started since I have been laid up. Otherwise, I run a tight ship and the kids are so loving and helpful, yes. That is a real blessing. Miles is really upset about his cow. It was his and he cries about that a lot too. Boys sometimes act out pretty bad when they feel the lack of control, but I am at the brunt of it, since Mark is away. Please pray peace over my day. I appreciate that.
I really appreciate getting to know so many lovely people here on the post. It is really a blessing.
I do glory in my infirmities, because I know that they are teaching me so very much. I have peace about God's plan. He is ordering everything out the way it works best. Sometimes it is hard, but it is through those hard times that He creates some of the best character and strength. The one thing that I feel more than anything is LOVE. I know God loves me so much and trusts me because He thinks I can handle so much. I have my moments where I break down and feel like I can't handle another thing, but then that is when he really knocks my socks off with some random blessing.
Praise report... as our cow was given a death sentence we were contacted by a christian family that runs a holstein dairy. One of their good heifers went down, did the splits. They just gave us the meat. I told them that the only way I could take the meat is if God would provide all the help to butcher it for free. I called one of my amish friends who own a farm (Harry), and it was his birthday, which I did not know until late last night, but he got a driver, came down to my home, got directions to the other farm, went in and killed, gutted, and skinned the beast. He brought it home with his driver and they are planning to grind and cut it up for our family. What a huge blessing! That is like $500 worth of meat for us. I am overwhelmed at God's mercy! I want to can it all, so I may wait until Sara Shoemaker (someone from the post), comes to help me. She also approached us that her and her husband felt led to let her and her two little ones journey from Washington to our home for two weeks while her husband will be traveling and gone from them for work. She just wants to help. I am in such need for help, I hate asking for help, too, but the Lord provided someone who would be just as blessed to serve as I will be to be ministered to in my great needs. Praise the Lord!!!!!
God is truly Merciful. I thank each of you for all your prayers. I believe they are helping us right now greatly.